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     She sat in piercing silence, her head gently resting on the old window, gazing into the seemingly endless outside, with lonely eyes. Unique shades of beautiful purples, blues and grays, fading together, painting the sky flawlessly. She quietly hummed a familiar, yet unknown tune, as she watched the rain fall freely from the shadowed clouds. Like tears falling from empty eyes, almost as if the sky itself were crying. 

She closed her eyes as a quick pain shot through her body. She stopped her hummed lullaby. She could hear her heartbeat shout. Everything seemed to quicken, she intently listened to her now barely beating heart sing out to the rain. She bit her lip, patiently waiting for yet another pain to pass. The minutes seemed to drag on. 

The rain, her heart and her breathing were now all in rythem, and soon melted into one. She fell to the floor holding herself, as if she were trying to catch her own body. Pain so great, greater than all those previous, took hold of her. The song that now taunted the young girl, had become so loud, that she did not even hear herself let out a tear laced howl. She clutched her stomached, and almost bit throught her lip, as all the blood in her veins seemed to catched fire, and burn. She felt as though her whole body was to become ash and embers.

After what seemed like forever, but were only merely minutes, everything stopped. She opened her lonely eyes, gazing into the seemingly endless outside, watching the sky cry for her. Shaking, she listened to the rain, her heart, and her breathing slow. The singing heart, hummed in silence, and the young girl took in her last living breath.

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So, I'm really not sure what this is.

For some odd reason, it reminds me of vampires....  I have idea as to why.

I placed the pencil to the untouched lines of the blank page and this is what flooded out if my head.

what do you think?

What does it remind you of?

Here's the next part. Let me know what you think. :]

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"How could I have been so freaking blind?! Como podría ser tan estúpido?" I hissed as I looked around the room for my clothes, searching in the mess strewn across the floor, the scene that had happened only moments before fueling my haste.

     My eyes slowly fluttered open, I squinted, trying to adjust to the light that was pouring in. My head was pounding, my memories from last night were a blurr, but I was too tired and too hung over to even want to remember. I closed my eyes and turned over, nuzzeling close to a warm figure. I didn't even realize someone else was with me until a long arm snaked it's way around my waist.

"Wha- holy shit!" I yelled falling out of bed backwards. I quickly took the sheet and wrapped it around my bare body.

"Goodmorning to you too sunshine." The tall figure replied sleepily with a yawn, as he stretched slightly. I looked up at him and I quickly realized who it was.

"Gabe?!"

"You and I both know you missed this." He said referring to himself, with that annoying grin. 'Ha, your funny, I stopped missing your ass a long time ago.'

"I see you're still an ego-tastic ass!" I snapped, trying to put on my pants.

"And you're still a stubborn bitch who likes using words that don't exist." He laughed at my use of 'ego-tastic'. I rolled my eyes and continued to look for my shirt.

"I can't fucking believe you did this." I said under my breath as I found the purple shirt

"It usually takes two people to do what we did, and I told you I didn't know it was you!" I detected a hint of amusement in his voice. 'he's so enjoying this'

"Bullshit!" I scoffed

"You knew exactly what you were doing when you walked into that damn bar!" 'God, I need to get out before I fucking kill him'

"I told you, my friends and I had already been drinking, before  we even walked into the place, it was also dark and it doesn't really help that i haven't seen you in, what? Like three years?! How was I supposed to know you still worked there? I thought you would've been doing something else by now!" He yelled obviously finding no humor in this anymore.

I stared at him in disbelief. 'Did he really just say that?!'

"You were the one who left! You were the one who decided to walk out without so much as a goodbye or a call! You were the one who left me three fucking years ago!" As I yelled, scenes from various memories flashed in my mind. He stayed quiet for a moment, then his face then twisted into a sick grin.

"Maybe I was tired of you?!" He finally replied, trying to play it off as a joke. This made me all the more angry.

"Agh! I Fucking hate you Gabe!" I picked up his brightly colored sneaker that sat next to my foot and threw it at him, hitting him square in the eye.

"What the fuck?! Ow!" He squealed in pain. I grabbed my things and ran out the door. I was pissed beyond belief, not only at him but at myself for not seeing what was so obvious last night. I felt a slight stinging in my eyes as I made my way down the street, little tears threatening to fall. I wiped them away. "I can't let myself cry."

"Jaz- Jaz!" My pace quickened the second I heard him.

" Jesus!Jaz wait up- listen!" He said grabbing my arm. 'Damn him and his long legs'

"Gabe, you better let go or you'll be missing a right arm." I said harshly through my tightly clenched teeth. He reluctantly let go.

"Thankyou, goodbye." I turned and left.

"Jaz!" he called again, following me.

"I know you hate me, I-I'm...just let me walk you home." he said quickly as he came beside me. I stopped to look at him.

"Yes. Gabe, I hate you. I fucking hate you, just as much as I used to love you! Now that we have that cleared up, do me a favor and walk right back out of my life!" I left him there speechless. I wanted nothing more than to go back in time and smack myself for being a dumbass and then disappear.

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Well this is the first part, I'm pretty new to this so your opinion is openly accepted. :]

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"Where the hell are you?!" The voice of my boss was the first thing that filled my ears once i picked up the phone, I instantly woke up. oh fuck.

"Shit! what time is it?" I asked as I quickly got out of bed, scanning my room for some clean clothes.

"Just get your skinny ass over here, we need you!" And with that she hung up. I glanced at my clock, as I put on a pair of dark worn out skinny jeans, and a bright purple robot tanktop. It was 6:30, I was half an hour late for my shift. I quickly brushed my teeth, put on some eyeliner, ran a brush through my hair, and grabbed my keys.

"Damn it, where's my other shoe?" i asked myself as i ran into the living room, I glanced around the small room, no luck.

"Kit, have you seen this shoe?!" I lifted my foot up a bit to fast and ended up on the floor, but within minutes the mate of my shoe appeared in the mouth of my pitbull puppy.

"Thanks Kit, gotta go, love you!" I picked myself up from the floor hopping toward the door in attempt to get my shoe on my foot, Kit just sat there and barked, happy he could help. I ran down the hall to the elevator, hoping to get to it before it closed. Just as it was closing, my neighbor stuck his foot between the doors, that usual smug smile glued to his face. Run down three flights of stairs, or spend two minutes with a total perv? I chose not to make myself later than I had to be.

"Late again?" he said with a chuckled.

"Bite me, Paul." I should've taken the stairs.

"Gladly."  The look in his eyes always made me uncomfortable, he made me uncomfortable. I shrugged it off, as I rolled my eyes.

"Only in your sick dreams"

"Always." He laughed but it made me shudder at how serious he sounded.

As soon as the doors opened I was out of there. I was only in the elevator with him for about two, three minutes, but even that was too long. I got into my beat up car and finally made it to work.

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"It's only been four hours and I'm already exhausted." Manny yelled over the blaring music, pulling out two beers for a young woman about my age.

"Jazz, I need you to take an order to the table over there." Toni pointed toward the back at a group of guys, I nodded.

"Hey, Toni, where's Lia, shouldn't she be here too?" I asked my boss, noticing that she wasn't present. I grabbed a brown tray from under the bar.

"She quit. She said something about her needing a better job than this-as she so colofully put it, 'shithole'." Manny answered pouring some drinks for the people sitting at the bar.

"That's the only reason you still have your job" Toni chimed in, with a playful smile, I laughed knowing she couldn't get rid of me even if she wanted to, which has been more than once, but I was still her favorite.

" Jazz, I don't know why you stick around, you could be going places with that voice of yours, you could be doing so much more with your life instead of wasting time waiting tables here." Manny said referring to why Lia had left, filling up the number of glasses that were placed on my tray with various liquids.

"Hey, this place... it's basically my home, you guys are my family, and I'm comfortable playing here, I don't need anything else." I replied picking up the tray with my right hand. He gave me a strange look and shook his head

"plus, I get free drinks once my shift is over, why would I want to leave? " I smiled as I snatched one of the cherries that sat on the bar table and popped it into my mouth as I left for the table Toni told me to tend to.

I quickly made my way through the sea of dancing people, spilling not one drop of the liquid, a skill that i had aquired a few years back. One word, difficult.

Within moments I found myself at the table surrounded by about six gentlemen in a laughing fit. It died down as I approuched the table.

"Well hello loves, sorry for the wait, we're kind of short handed.... one of the girls quit. But anyways, here are your drinks, enjoy." I said flirtatiously. They all uttered thankyous and took there drinks. I turned to leave when one of the men spoke.

"Uh, excuse me?" I turned back to face the group.

"Oh, is there anything else you'd like?" I asked sweetly looking to the man who called. He was wearing a bright red hoodie.

" Well, you forgot something."

"Really, what might that be, little red riding hood?" I didn't forget anything, he knew it, but I decided to humor him.

" Your name." He stated simply, dismissing the fact that I just made fun of him, I could see his smile from under the bill of his hat.

"How about you tell me yours?" I said keeping up the playful banter.

"You don't know who I am?" I smiled at how full of himself he sounded, he pretended to be hurt.

"You will have to excuse my friend, he has an ego that is so big it suffocates his brain, and the alcohol doesn't really help much." Another man who was sitting next to him had said with a slight chuckle as he patted Mr. Ego's head, ignoring the crude gesture he had gotten, the others just laughed. I tried to hide my laughter by turning my back to walk away.

"Uh miss." he beckoned once more, I couldn't help but start to feel a bit annoyed, I had other tables to tend to.

"Is there anything else you'd like?"

"Your number" There was that same smile, his friends just rolled their eyes. I seductively bent forward, to meet his eyes. He had gorgeous eyes, I notice they were a deep brown as I leaned closer.

"Maybe next time" I grabbed the bill of his overly bright green hat and swiftly pulled it over his face.

"Shot Down!" An eruption of laughter followed, I walked away with a small smile dancing on my lips.

"Hey, wait!" He demanded. Always leave them wanting more.

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My hips swayed with the music as Danger Radio blasted through the speakers. I mouthed the words, eyes closed, and body moving. My shift ended about an hour ago and I was more than happy to take to the dancfloor.

"This is fun, huh Manny?" I asked once I made my way over to the bar as the song ended. I had a couple drinks, so my words were a wee bit slurred.

"You really can't handle your alcohol very well, can you babe?" Manny asked leaning on the bar, I began giggling uncontrolably, smiling I took a lemon slice.

"Well, looks like this should be interesting." Manny said with a sly smirk, looking past me.

"What do you mean?" My faced puckered from the lemon, he pointed behind me, I spun around and met two familiar deep brown eyes.

"H-hi." I muttered, he had the same smile on his face

"Well, hello there, but I was wondering if I could get-"

"My shift's over, ask Manny" I smiled, as I pointed to Manny behind the bar not letting him finish his sentence, he laughed slightly and shook his head.

"Well, no offence to you Manny, I mean your really pretty and all but-" He shrugged, I couldn't help but giggle once more, I was really bad at holding my liquor.

"So, you ready to tell me your name?" He looked extremely tall, I didn't notice before, he was sitting, but now he looked gigantic, he was also extremely hot. I was begining to feel delightfully dizzy as I tilted my head.

"Depends, are you ready to tell me yours?" I smiled and stuck another lemon in my mouth. He ordered two shots, and as quickly as they came, they were gone.

He only smiled as he took my hand and led me to the dancefloor.

This is what you get when your talking back, baby.

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tell me what you think. :]

She needed to get away.

There was nothing left for her here anymore, no reason to stay.

She was tired of the same routine, everyone was the same, they were robots.

Lying, cheating, clones, who couldnt think for themselves, all clustering in this perfect little unsuprising neighborhood.

It was the same over and over, she wanted needed a change, something new, so as soon as she could, she up and left.

Tonight was the night, she could finally leave this sickeningly perfect little place.

A small smile traced her lips as she took one last look around her room, this was the last time she would stand  trapped by those four white walls. "lets brighten it up a bit, shall we?" she whipsered to herself pulling out her bright pink lipstick, and bringing it up to the plain wall like a three year old with a crayon.

"perfecto" she uttered in her light accent that only exsited when she spoke spanish, she dropped the lipstick onto the floor signifying she was finished, she grabbed her last bag as she made her way out the window. As she shimmied her way down the side of her house, she made no sound, the playful smile never leaving her face.

She ran to her beat up old car she loved so much, and slid into the drivers seat, biting her lip as she turned the key in the ignition. She let out a little squeal as the excitement almost became too much, just almost.

She closed her eyes before she pulled out of the driveway, not looking back, leaving only a single kiss beside a simple goodbye.

This was the graduation present she wanted.....an escape.

ok, an idea for a story, which will include Mr.Gabe Saporta and other guests

let me know what you think :]